He Broke My Heart For What Breaks His

6 Dec

Growing up, my parents provided my siblings and I with all we needed and more.  Through experiences in our day-to-day life and on short-term mission trips overseas, our eyes were opened to various cultures and their needs.  A verse which was often referenced in our home was Luke 12:48.  To whom much is given, much is required.  We were a family blessed with generations of believers who deeply loved Jesus and wanted others to know him as well.  I love to think back about my grandfather who made it his mission to squeeze as many unchurched children in his vehicle and drive them to his small country church every Sunday morning.  His back yard, his community, his family, was his mission field.

I remember as a child watching my dad and about 60 of his closet friends get on a big bus and head off to serve people all over the world.  I can remember the feeling of excitement among these men who, once a year would go to the nations and tell people about Jesus.  Recently my dad and I were discussing these trips and how those were the best years of his life.  Up until 2009, I would listen to his stories and watch both he and my mom go on these trips, but I didn’t “get it.”

Even though I had the privilege as a child to go on some of these trips, I was too selfish to see the work God was doing through the missionaries placed right in front of me.  You can imagine my lack of excitement when my husband began responding to the call placed on his heart to work with orphans in Ukraine.  He would go 1 to 2 times a year and I would complain, a lot, each time.  Again, I was acting selfish.

In 2009, during a service at my church, I sat and listened to a group who had just returned from mission trip to Tanzania.  I couldn’t deny the emotions that were stirring in me as I was listening to their testimonies.  It was no doubt the Holy Spirit telling me to go!  I went, my life was forever changed, and just like my parents and my husband, I “got it.”  I understood now how a piece of them will always remain in the areas which they served.  I understood how being obedient to God’s command to go and make disciples of all the nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and the Son and the Holy Spirit. (Matt 28:19) is not an option, to all followers of Jesus. We are to go-whether it’s next door or to another country-and make disciples.

By the grace of God, my heart began to change.  I learned that my husband and a dear friend of mine, Tammy Reynolds, had been praying for this change for years.  I had been going through the motions of a “Christian,” but had not fully surrendered myself to the Lord.  In my case, it was when I began serving others instead of myself, that this became evident.

I will save my testimony for another post, but the point of this one is to share some of the steps God mercifully led me through in order to reveal His perfect will in my life.  He is certainly not finished molding me into the person He desires me to be.  I am still a sinner in need of a Savior, who is striving to know Him better.Image

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14 Responses to “He Broke My Heart For What Breaks His”

  1. Marcia December 6, 2012 at 3:45 am #

    Cynthia, your words are so powerful and so inspirational. Our prayers are with you!

    Love y’all sooo much!

    • 1step1day1mission December 6, 2012 at 3:49 am #

      Thanks for the prayers! It’s been a fun journey so far. We love y’all too.
      Cynthia

  2. Sheila December 6, 2012 at 4:15 am #

    This really touched my heart Cynthia. I admire you and Jacob as you step forward in faith to do what is on your heart. Love and prayers follow you from the Duttons.

    • 1step1day1mission December 8, 2012 at 5:19 pm #

      Thank you Mrs. Sheila. We appreciate the words of encouragement and the prayers from you and Mr. Johnny.

  3. Justin Riley December 6, 2012 at 5:15 am #

    I don’t even know what to say. The Holy Spirit is a powerful force and I am feeling much conviction by reading your words of truth. Thank you for sharing and thanking you for being a living testimony of our Savior. God bless you and your family.

    Justin Riley
    aka Joey;)

    • 1step1day1mission December 8, 2012 at 5:27 pm #

      Joey,
      It’s always great hearing from you! We look forward to sharing our walk with you and your family. Thank you for your continued support!

  4. sherrylpm December 6, 2012 at 11:55 pm #

    Cynthia, David and I stand with you guys in prayer as you obey the Lord to the ends of the earth. He is so worth it! I pray that you feel His smile of approval.

    • 1step1day1mission December 8, 2012 at 5:29 pm #

      It’s so good to hear from you, Sherry. Jacob and I appreciate yours and David’s prayers.

  5. Tammy Reynolds December 7, 2012 at 4:07 am #

    Oh Cynthia – what powerful words and what an incredible witness your words speak! I HAVE been praying for years that you would “hear” God’s Call on your life and in your heart! From the stories I heard of your childhood way back in those Wednesday afternoon Bible studies we did together, to getting to know and growing to love your missionary minded husband (and the little brother I wish I had had!), It has always been so clear to me that The Lord has had plans for you to be “hands on” serving “the last, the lost, and the least” in the world, whether, as you blog, they are right next door or around the globe! My heart has been singing with joy and praising our God ever since you shared with me your desire to be full time in the mission field!

    Continue to open your ears and your heart to His Voice. I just KNOW that He is whispering to you that you are fearfully and wonderfully made (Psalms 139), that HE is love, (1 John) and that HE chose to not only create you, but to use you because HE loves you! (Jeremiah 1:5) HE has given you authority to do great things (John 14: 12-14) – things far more than you could ever imagine for through Christ, you can do anything! (Philippians 4:13) How cool is it when our desires begin to line up with HIS Desires our lives!

    I continue to pray for you, Jacob, and your girls as you set out to be missionaries to the nations. As the time draws closer and closer to your move into the mission field, never forget that you are being held in The Palms of His Hands, and that you and Jacob are HIS Son and Daughter —- no matter what! Always remember that HE is in control, HE is leading your lives each and every day, and HE has made provision for this great move in your lives since before time began! Thinking about this “Divine Alignment” for you and your family and feeling this great love and gratefulness for you and Jacob in my life AND in HIS Kingdom, I am humbled, I am amazed, and I can do nothing but lift my hands up in worship and praise to our Great King!

    I love you and Jacob both so very much and truly do pray for y’all each and every day and I will keep on “keeping on” with my prayers! After all, I’ve been doing it for years – why stop now! Y’all can ALWAYS count on those prayers sweet sister in Christ!!

    Tammy Reynolds

    • 1step1day1mission December 8, 2012 at 10:53 pm #

      Thank you, Tammy for your prayers and friendship over the years. You and Matthew are a blessing to our family!

  6. Tom Lanahan April 6, 2013 at 12:43 pm #

    Cynthia,
    Paula and I are praying for you, Jacob and the girls. I, like you, didn’t get the mission work until the Sunday, you and the team were in Tanzania, broadcasting back to COTES on that 2009 trip. The Holy Spirit put a stirring in my heart that pushed me to go on the 2011 trip that I was blessed to share with you and the team. My life has not been the same since. I am so proud, and jealous at the same time, to see you and your family take this step in following God’s calling in your life. Know that we love you guys, think of you often, and pray for you always. They say, once you’ve shared a mission trip with someone, there’s a bond that will last a lifetime forged. I am blessed to have shared Africa with you in 2011! Tell Jacob and the girls hello from the Lanahan’s. We pray God’s grace over you, and His love go before you in all you do. By His strength, not ours……………tom

    • 1step1day1mission April 6, 2013 at 10:53 pm #

      Tom,
      Thank you for sharing your story. I love how God works and stirs our hearts in unique ways. I so enjoyed our trip to Africa together in 2011! Please tell Paula and Lydia hello and we covet your prayers.
      Blessings,
      Cynthia

  7. Susan Dorsey April 6, 2013 at 12:50 pm #

    Cynthia, thank you for sharing your story and your heart. I love your testamony about how seeds sown early in your life from your Godly family have blossomed now into your life. Your sweet spirit and beautiful smile will open many doors for hurting people to feel loved and safe. I admire your and Jacob’s courage in faith to dedicate your time to helping others. You inspire me! God be with you and your precious family!

    • 1step1day1mission April 6, 2013 at 10:57 pm #

      Thank you Susan. We are very excited about our move to Honduras. Your prayers and encouragement mean the world to us! I’m so glad we got to know each other when Myra and Cyrus played soccer together. You have such a sweet family.
      Cynthia

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